eating the world.

right now, i look like this:

yes, it's just me and my books for more than a month baby. just me, my books and my depressed mode.

on the brighter side, i'm going out tomorrow! it won't kill to relax for a mere 4 hours. i just need to get that jacket.

mom: why do you need a jacket for?
me: go to genting? cameron highlands? i'll need a jacket in life!
mom: -skeptical look-
me: i need it to study with the air condition on okay???
mom: -turns spastic- you wanna wear a jacket in the room with the air cond on? OFF IT so you can save electricity and money to buy a jacket?

you see. zha dou, i tell you. zha dou. sorry no subtitles available. X.X

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.

i guess i'll live.

for update's sake, just so you know, i won't be blogging much anymore.


life was perfect when the teachers announced that finals would be on the 3rd of november.
life was still perfect when the results were to be mailed during the hols.
life was merely perfect when there's still more than 5 weeks to study.
life was near to perfection when i thought not the whole syllabus will be tested for certain subjects.


life is horrible when the principal decided to divide the finals into first and second phase.
life is extremely horrible as the finals will last for a month.
life is fucking horrible now because the first phase begins a week after raya.
life is in its maximum horribility (i know the word does not exist!) when there's two more weeks to cover for physics 2, chemistry 3, biology 3, add maths 1 as they're unfortunately, in the first phase.


yay. joy for us, no?
so much for 'happy hols'.

the grass is greener.

take a look at victoria institution's science laboratory!
pictures taken from jy. =)




and compare them with our inadequate laboratories. big difference huh? they even have foetuses, human bodies, rabbits, cows, hearts, lungs, and you name them. what do we have to compete with, let's see:

6 pentagon shaped tables.
squared chairs.
projector.
whiteboards.
information boards.

ever thought of bugs in sushis? i'm sure these will open your eyes.

well mine are. O.O

OOOOOOO.OOOOOOOOOOOOO i have multiple eyes now.
unbelievable, isn't it?!

i think my pupils are dilating to the max.

O.O my temakis!

people are getting really creative nowadays.

note: pictures are solely for entertainment purpose and are taken from the upper six of V.I. :D

my beau.

hana really made my day. and i now declare she has the COOLEST blog ever! visit her at http://faranzasyns.blogspot.com/. and i don't just mean that because she posted this..

But enough of that jaded talk. haha. Not all relationships are that tangled-up. Let's take a look at my fave couples, shall we?

Couple number 1: Kye Li & Jun Ying (bluekS!)

Their story: Heck, I wouldn't know, would I? I met Jun Ying before I knew Kye Li. Yeah, basically, that's the way it was. I think. Lol. I met Jun Ying through friendster. Mei Yin was talking about "murdering" Jun Ying. So me and Mei Yin kinda yakked about it in our comments section at Friendster. Then, as fate would have it, Jun Ying saw the comment. =_=''... and so, through quirky twists and turns of events, me and Jun Ying became pals. Pretty much, we plan to kill people. I'd get the weapons and he'd plan the get-away. But bottomline, no mission was successful (none carried out, that is XD). Then, I entered 3A. I still didn't know Kye Li and JY had something going on. Until one day I kinda groaned and moaned at JY about me having to sit beside Kye Li. Surprisingly, he backed her up. At that moment, like manna from heaven, I knew they had something on. Slow aren't I? ;p

The challenges they faced: I'd know pretty well, I think. Kye Li gets a lot of objections from a lot of people about her and Jun Ying. Also, I don't think her parents know about her and Jun Ying; but that's the last time I checked. ;p. I don't know about now. But due to some misunderstandings and short fuses, Jun Ying isn't accepted as gracefully as they both would have hoped. Nevertheless, the two stuck with each other. And I salute them for that. Heck, I love your pair! You look cute! (it takes two to tango, kye li, so I'd say without Jun Ying, the term "cute" wouldn't have been used in the first place. lol. Just kiddin ;p)



awwwwwwww hana, what can i say?

old habits die hard.

i just have to compliment this band.
but before you can understand what i'm trying to say, DOWNLOAD SILLY LILY by BUNKFACE.
and don't judge, listen to the song. then tell me what you think.



don't start googling them beforehand too. just listen to the damn song lah.


then you're allow to highlight from down onwards, after listening to the song okay.

yes, they're MALAYSIANS. don't you feel like slapping yourself now because they sound (i didn't say look) so like green day? YES THEY DO!

_________


TGIS, don't you feel the same way too. :D

abomination.

i was borned with many bad traits. greedy's a significant one. and yes, i have this negative wanting to grab every food i see, regardless of their appearances. one, two, or three, can never be enough for me. i'll always take more, because i strongly think that, being full is better than famish. since there's more, why take less? and quickly, i'll gorge food down my tummy. and that's tee kye li.

DAMN IT RHYMES!

the story unfolds as my mom cooked barly with fu chuk and eggs. i loathe kekacangs, especially barly. so i took a big spoonful of the sweet fluid only, leaving barly and fu chuk behind.

then i got a sounding today.

mom: what happened to all the water?! who drank the water only?! now there's only the sendiments left!

my bad.

mom: why don't you just boil sugar with water and drink it?

so here i am now.

trying to drown these fibres down my throat.

and you think it's a small mug?

at least i think, barly promotes health.
_________________

i have a little confession to make.

i was never into writing. the lack of vocabulary pushed me out of this field. so you should understand why when there's zilch updates -- i have absolutely no idea what to write, or, i've not been attending social events. i find it very amusing how some people can write endlessly and flawlessly without even flipping through the dictionary. while i on the other hand, have trouble conveying my message to the world. i thought the world does not understand me, but then again, i can't blame the world. it's me me me and my lack of vocabulary. my question, how do people manage to store bombastic words that seems alphabetically disorder, not to mention knowing the meaning behind them in that brain of theirs? the other agonizing truth is that, my brain's of the similar size! the only difference that separates me from them?

my brain does not read. okay okay, don't blame it on my brain. I do not read. and i somehow think that the past 12 years of chinese education has nothing to do with my less than perfect english. i will not cook up an excuse.

okaylah, say it. i'm an english wannabee!
________

i'm not the woman behind you, i want to be beside you.

jennifer love

aly thinks the current episode of ghost whisperer's not interesting, not scary, not touching at all. she thinks it's lame whereas mel and i cried after watching it.

kylie low! says:
are u being posessed..
Mel T says:
kye li and i can help u cross to the light
aly says:
i see it
aly says:
but i dont wanna go
kylie low! says:
who are you attached to??
kylie low! says:
we can help you!
Mel T says:
maybe she wants to cross it after exams
aly says:
im attached to u guys
aly says:
so i ll be after u all FOREVER!

this shall be my hair colour after spm. it's not blonde, not brunette, not red, not orange, it's

HONEY GOLD!

hewitttt!

19 months,

and i'm loving every bit of it. i will never regret you, albeit the distance, arguements and sleepless nights; it's love.







give it another 10, 30, 100 years. i'll be loving you long time.

DFY, man.

i don't think anyone realised that i was never at the kompleks today. no wonder the national anthem wasn't as melodious! and it's no wonder that the sun was as glaring as ever!

truth revealed.

came up with a little plan to escape from sitting on concrete floor for hours and to wear a patriotic mask on my face. well i do love my country, but i needed the extra 2 hours of sleep badly. kim and i made this pact to attend school only when it's recess just for the sake of add maths.

i took a little excursion to her house beforehand, which is directly opposite the school, and we waited till the clock strikes 10:10.

we've never been this rebellious so we were constantly trapped in the state of paranoia till we had to pretend as twins/cousins/far relatives. i know i know, tskkk tskkk. THE GUARD DID NOT EVEN UTTER A WORD when we entered the school compound! i guess it definitely boosts my confidence to do this again, takers? :D

disclaimer; BSL at your own risk!

kim's attempt to photoshop this picture so as we look like we have angellic rings above our head and preparing heavenly breakfast. i know, it's horrible!

that self pro-claimed renjer puteri couldn't bring herself up to boil eggs for the egg sandwiches and i hate being associated to the kitchen, see that, jy, you're cooking in future! so we ended up spreading jams and pre made garlic spread onto breads for breakfast.

looks may be deceiving. don't start ewww-ing here because it's F O O D.

tantalizing garlicious breads.

definitely delectable and you won't even hesitate to worry about bad breath. :D

what you want me to pose with huh?

that's what happens when you're too short.

kim: kylie, where's my phone?! -frantic look-
kim: wait! -scurries off-
kim: -runs back- oh it's in my pocket.

above par.

four random facts for the day:

1. i have no sound system installed to my comp, yet

2. i watched happy tree friends through youtube. and it's is absofuckinglutely sick, disturbing and disgusting to the max. UGHHHH. it's CARTOON. and it's VIOLENT. X.X

these seemingly innocous cartoons, turns out to be

you get what i mean now? the image of birds pecking one of the cartoon character's open brain is still flashing vividly and playing over and over again like a tape recorder without the pause button in my mind. PLEASE STOP, BRAIN. i'm a very traumatized soul now, so PLEASE.

i dare you, google happy tree friends - blind date and watch it.

3. i watched nate kissing this unknown blondie and loser dan kissing this unknown spanish woman, or so i think, in gossip girl season 2 episode 1 through youtube, (refer to the first fact.); feeling ultimately chagrined and curious right now.

4. the movie ps. i love you made me criedddddd likeeee madddddd. i still prefer the book better and ohhhh, love can be so tragic.


not everyone would understand this movie in-depth, because you can never put yourself into someone else's shoes. you don't buy new shoes, you just have to wait till your shoes walk through such predicament. then you can start talking.

cockamamie.

YES IT'S THE MOONCAKE FESTIVAL TOMORROW!
just you wait guys. i'm gonna have barbeque under the moonlight. i'll coerce my dad to steal/buy/borrow a barbeque set, and i will barbeque while enjoying the sight of full moon. ahhhh. bliss.

IF IT RAINS. god knows what i'll do then.
hmmmphh.
and the place will be an absolute free-mozzy zone, mellie smellie.



me: i want to own a car once i get my license next year!
dad: -blanks-
me: a KANCIL will do fine!
dad: kancil's not strong enough, once crash you'll die. kembara's better.

HOHOHO. let's hope he wasnt day-dreaming at that time.

lehairsac.

the both of us always look ______ after a haircut. blame the hairstylists.

chagrin.

i may look unfit, my forehead is always drenched with pouring sweats after a stone's throw walk from esso to school in the morning, despite the pleasant weather. not to mention during sunny days.

i may not look athletic (though i've always tried to be like one, because it's simply cool!); but i always end up shouting and yelling my head off more than i actually dribble in a basketball match.

but somehow i'm not half bad in volleyball, which happens to be my only favourite sport, other than badminton. well, i think everyone can play badminton provided a racquet and a shuttlecock, so it doesnt really count, really! especially indonesian maids. =) that's just my opinion, sorry badminton players.

and somehow i like the sight of my reddening and sometimes bruised arms after a game of volleyball. trust me, it's not pain, it's pleasure!

being a part of the national women volleyball team has always been my secret fantasy. it's disappointing that malaysia's volleyball teams don't go anywhere near to the international level. not even close. OKAY LAH, my volleyball skills ain't that good but I CAN ALWAYS WISH!


unlike the sbu's volleyball team, short sleeves with long track pants. ha ha ha!

&& i want a medal for under 18 girls team next year! :D

define paranoia.

do not part your lips, because, i think i'm into grass green now. :O
still a baby pink fan though! a woman can always have the best of both worlds.
and it's clearly, clearly obvious that i've changed my layout.
looking forward to hear from you soon. >>> you know what to do.



i'm gaining weight like the speed of a bullet train. okay maybe, slower.
that buldging waistline intrigues me to say 'hey that's not mine'!
and the mark on that incredible machine which always tell the truth whenever i step on it with shudders makes me wanna...

create a negative zero error. yes. but i'll be living in a lie then!

SO HOW?

eat fruits. they should help.

don't be fooled. these are sugared jambu. eat 10 of those and you'll get diabetes. but i can't stop myself from salivating when i see them, and there's still like 2 more in the fridge. oh myyy. forget diet. LIVE TO EAT!

gratitude (II).

since afzan's blog is privated, i shall retype what she has just posted.


____

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

gratitude....

i would like to express my GRATITUDE to dis fella who'll made me rememba dis event fer d rest of my life... 0.o WHO??? who???who??? i meant who???????????????????????? ahahhaha
well here it goes... to.. >>

-an ugly picture of me which i will not post up-

TEE KYE LI
KYE LI
LALA-LI

thanx fer giving me a fucking flu... (i think i finished 2 whole box of 200 sheets premier tissue..)
thanx fer giving me a cough.. (if i noe any betta, i'll b having blood oozing out too.. *touch wood*)
thanx fer being d MAIN source fer my sneeze prob.. ( yes im a sneeze machine.. AGAIN!)
thanx fer having a decency to warn other ppl of ur germs... (except me.. =.=

thanx fer giving me ur germs/bacteria/virus/shit-of-i-dun-noe-wat... (hari raya's gift izzit??)
thanx fer KEEP giving it to me eventhough u haf seen me suffer fer today... -____-
las but not least... thanx fer laughing when u noe i GOT IT ALL....

dun give me dat look... y?? ur sorry NOW???

______

HAHA, yes afzan. sadly, that's all i can say now.
okay and you're right i can't stop laughing! HAHAHAHHA.

sorrryyyyyyy~~~

he's always there.

for his eyes only, as for the rest of you, mind scrolling down till you see that short black line? yes, i see you see it. so that's where you can start reading. thank you.


some things in life really piss me off. insignificant problems do matter, only if you're bothered enough to take it into account. in my case, i do. and that guilt, which may seem like just a tinge but deep inside it's as big as that unpleasant stain i see now, will always remain in my fist-sized heart.

it's not just that though, it's the responsibility. it's the promises. it's the trust you've kept in me. i think i lost it, to that stupid big blue stain.
i'm only able to say sorry. how pathetic is that.

______________


ian's can be a pain in the ass at times, especially when he gives you that sheepish smile which indirectly translates to no way, never!



here's another example of him being a whatever major loser.

so we are supposed to bring food for this biology experiment on the energy value of food tomorrow. lucky enough for me, i don't have the slightest idea how and why, i ended up sitting at the same hexagon table with him.


he smsed this:
i'm bringing some tauge and garlic for bio. u bring nuts.

i'm surprised that he's actually, and finally bringing stuff for experiments.

i replied:
not bad huh. but i have no nuts.

him:
then bring whatever you ate for dinner.


can i say, bitch, please?

baloney.

here's a word of wisdom i'd like to share with everyone. give it a thought and you may find it very very inspirational.

"make sure when you're copying, you know what you're copying."

- youknowwho.

in reference to laine's post on 25 things,

26. when a teacher is quiet, million of thoughts are going through her mind.
27. when a teacher utters something out of random, she/he has been keeping it to himself/herself for a long, long time.

saturday blacks.

this was how school on a saturday looks like:

HELLOO?

HELLO???

it was 6am and a SATURDAY ("value-add"), what do you think?
was forced to go to school for the alumni, and dad had to go outstation so there was i.. at six in the morning. hi, the ghosts of sbu, glad i did not acquainted any. =)


everything was perrrrrrfecto, till it rained.

the alumni was supposed to kick off by 2pm but the skylite was e m p t y due to the rain. at 2:15pm, there were only 14 of them. oh god. my expression was like

='(
yes, yin, whatever sims character.

lucky enough, people started pouring in and we started off 45 minutes later. the amount of people present was satisfying though. marc bet that only a maximum of three rows will be full. but it turned out that more than half came. BLUEKKKK~ you lost the bet marc!

the vice organizing chairman and the emcee.

alert: ALY BROUGHT A COMB TODAY. A COMB!!!

aly: i have to look presentable what!
aly: i'm combing to the side now... eh i look not bad!

-.-


all in all, i think we did a great job though most people were bored by the programme. haha, it's a formal meeting to set up the committee for alumni, what more you can expect? sooo sorrry bout the cheerleading, i know most of you came for that. =(

A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO THE 80 OVER PEOPLE WHO ATTENDED TODAY, you people definitly boost my self-esteem in handling big events. also, THANK YOU INDEFINITLY MUCH to all the form 4 ubs members, you people are wonderful*!

*sounds familiar?


my ex neighbour, stephanie --whom still lives a few houses away from me but we have barely seen each other since she attended college this year-- attended the alumni and offered a ride home. means no taxi back, yayy~

but before that, we had to wait for nicholas (her boyfriend, her neighbour, my neighbour) at the cybercafe for almost an hourrrrrr.

so the bunch of ex form 5 guys were playing COUNTER STRIKE, that's also when all the vulgar words in english, mandarin, hokkien, cantonese, french, japanese, indonesia etc etc etc came out.

good thing was, i've learnt something new and do not piss me off or i'll bombard you with my new knowledges. MWAHAHAHA, kidding.


i had one hour to kill, so i gulped the drink down and colourised my lips with mirinda orange. not lipstick okay, jun hao.

meet my neighbour of.. errrrm. eight fat choy years. very hot pose, steph! haha. i hope you don't visit my blog.


just when i thought we're heading back home,

steph & nich: let's go eat!

went to great eastern mall, which was the nearest mall we could find, and dinnered at cozy house. my, the place was FULLY reserved and they only allowed us in because nich assured them that we'll finish our food by 7pm. =S

what la, buka puasa's not that early right?

we sat on this table with a ZULKIFLI or some name reserved and when the drinks came, the waitress assisted us to another table because encik zul and his family have arrived. so we shifted

to this table which was booked by HANAFIAH.

steph: what if hanafiah comes, then we have to shift to another table, then the person who booked the other table comes, then we shift and shift until we have to eat outside?!

ROFL!

we ordered quickly and rushed the food down our tummy, i did not even have time to analyse the menu.

cute!

oklah, i actually miss the both of you. hmmmph.

nicholas: QUICKLY take pictures! hanafiah's coming!!!


@ pets wonderland.

me: wah, these fake birds so pretty and real one!
-the birds blinked and flapped their wings-

seriously.


look closely, this dog was actually taking all the food for itself and covered them with its paws!

and left this dog here in starvation. awwww.

they let the shitzu out so i was like, ohhhh it's soo cuteee, and started taking pictures of it. then i realised it was right underneath, sniffing my shoes.

AHHHHHH. i screamed, and almost, almost, almost, stepped on the poor thing.
amitabha.

they camwhored at the restaurant.

they camwhored at cold storage's counter.

I SWEAR, THE CASHIER WAS STARING AT THEM.

THEN the elevator.

steph: let's take picture here nich! we can promote 1901 hotdogs!!!

i know what you're thinking. i was being the light bulb and kacau daun.
think of it this way, neighbours' outing! that's cool.

she's so short that i dont think people could even see who's driving the kembara.

hallelujah, i arrived home safely under a P licensed driver.